“All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

So, in no time flat, my schedule had filled up. Again. It’s almost as bad as that one week last year. I’ll have a link to that post at the bottom. I have 2 audition, finals, a fashion show, and a show in the next 3 weeks. Here is my schedule for the next 2 or 3 weeks:

Sunday- church, write 10 page essay and turn in online, memorize sides for Monday’s audition.

Monday- Leave at 7 am for Los Angeles. Audition at 2. Memorize Tuesday’s 10 page script on the way home from Los Angeles.

Tuesday- rehearsal performance in Acting class, yoga class, go over Tuesdays sides, English class.

Wednesday- audition at callback for the student film I did about a month ago, revise English paper and turn in.

Thursday- Regular classes, look at “Midsummer Night’s Dream” script.

Friday- Modeling Workshop for Delta CC in Sacramento 4-10

Saturday, Sunday- Look at “Midsummer Night’s Dream” script.

Monday- Rehearsal for Shakespeare.

Tuesday- Acting final 9:30-12:20, Yoga final 12:45-3:35, English final 4-6:50. Miss rehearsal.

Wednesday- Rehearsal.

Thursday- Dress rehearsal for fashion show in Sacramento 10am-10pm.

Friday- Fashion show 10am-10pm.

Saturday- Performance of Shakespeare.



If English and Yoga were totally eliminated, paper and all, from my schedule, that would make me really happy. I am honestly not sure if I can do the Shakespeare show. I really want to do it, though. I am okay with missing rehearsals, even the two final dress rehearsals, but I’m not sure the director will. Oh, the director is in the San Francisco Shakespeare Festival. That’s the company putting this on. We are using their costumes, too. Awesome!


I just have to trust that God will watch me and keep a steady hand on my shoulder to protect me. He is always there, even in the scary parts of life.


Ever since I changed my diet, my acne has almost completely cleared up. I haven’t done anything too radical, but I pretty much only eat fruits, veggies, meat, nuts, and the only grain I will eat is bread, usually organic from the brand Eureka, or the bread from a stand at my farmers market I go to every other week. It’s every Saturday, but I get paid every two weeks. I usually cook my veggies. I was going to try raw vegan, but I couldn’t stand it more than half a day. I still eat eggs, and I eat honey. I buy local honey, mostly for my allergies.


Here’s the post:



“There is nothing like a dream to create the future.” -Victor Hugo

Quite a few things have happened and I have been too lazy to record it. Yikes.

In short:

  • I booked the same fashion show as last year at a local community college. However, the venue is different and can hold over 1,00, as opposed to  last year’s 60. I haven’t met the designer yet, which makes me concerned because the event is in 3 weeks. 
  • I have a call back for a student film in 4 days. I still need to memorize the script. And print it out.
  • My mom wrote a book this past year and was on our local news doing a promotion for it. While we were there, Guy Fieri was there doing a cooking special right before us. We got to meet him as he was leaving. Also, a woman named Luenell was there doing a spot for her comedy. She is an actress with over 30 credits, including Taken 2, Hotel Transylvania, Borat, and The Rock. We got our picture with her. Awesome!
  • I might be in A Midsummer’s Night Dream. I’m not sure what company it is, but my friend is hooking me up. I don’t even know what it is about.
  • I am looking for a second summer job. Forever 21 is still giving me about 8 hours a week. This isn’t cutting it anymore. I need at least 20 hours a week. I need to be able to pay for groceries and gas. Not only enough gas to get to and from work.
  • I was going to audition for Beauty and the Beast in the next town, but they couldn’t get the funding. Then I heard they are going to do Rent. I don’t know, but I am really bummed about cancelling the show.
  • School is wrapping up. I have 1 more week and then a week of finals. I have a 10 page script for my acting class, a 10 page research/analysis paper due on Tuesday in my English class, and the final for my English class left.
  • I found out I can’t move out unless I work am a full time student. That wouldn’t be a problem but I would need to work full time at the same time to stay afloat. I can’t do both. If I move out, I loose my medical insurance. Looks like I’m not moving to Los Angeles any time soon. I don’t understand how other people did it on no money.
  • I made a facebook page for me. Go follow me. Just search Mckenna Hardy and it should be the first page to pop up.

That is my life, in short, from the last 2 weeks.

I can’t wait for summer. I just wish I had something to do.

I feel I need to get away from here. A week, a day, an hour. To Santa Cruz, San Francisco, Santa Monica, Malibu, Long Beach. Somewhere big, but relaxing. Maybe after school gets out. Get a group together and go somewhere for the day. This town is boring, entertainment wise.


“All I ask is the chance to prove that money can’t make me happy.” -Spike Milligan

The title is about money because I went to an audition yesterday in Hollywood. I paid for the gas. I don’t think I should have paid for the gas. I don’t think anyone should have paid for the gas. It pisses me of that anyone had to pay for the gas. I’m not saying I should have gotten gas money for it, but the audition was such a joke, in my opinion, that I shouldn’t have gone. I drive 300 miles there for a joke audition, drive 300 miles back, and am exhausted during work the next day for nothing.

I got to the audition an hour early, and the audition was at a book store in Hollywood. We wandered around the store for an hour and then waited outside in a line. I was dressed in a cheetah print halter dress and gladiator style brown sandals. The info in the email said to dress the part. I did. I was audition for Jane, as in Tarzan and Jane. There were other girls there in workout clothes and no makeup and then there were girls, literally  in leopard print skimpy bikinis or mid drift shirts and mini skirts and 6 inch heels, and guys without shoes or shirts. And, I was one of the shortest girls there. Driving by, you would have thought we were auditioning for a jungle porno. Anyway, they called in 3 people at a time, and I was in the 3rd group. I was the second one to go in my group. We were to go up in front of a group of people, who were there for a book signing, and tell why in a bout 30 seconds why I would make a good Jane, or Tarzan for the guys. No joke, the girl before me stripped off all her clothes, on camera, to reveal a tiny leopard print bikini, a ten body, and was pretty in shape. How am I going to get the job if nobody is taking it seriously and professionally but I am? That was no way to come to an audition! No to mention all the talk I was listening in on about “if nothing happens by 7:30, I’m leaving”. I felt so out of place. So, I went up there and I have no idea what I said. The first thing I said was “sorry, but I’m not going to take off my clothes” and they thought it was hilarious. Hopefully, that will make them remember me and want me.

Oh. There was a guy behind me was saying how he had researched the whole Tarzan thing and it was real and he was telling the story of Tarzan, obviously flirting with some of the other girls. I was listening in, and he was retelling the Disney version of Tarzan, exactly. It was actually pretty funny.

But it felt like a joke. Like thinking you are being sent to an audition for a big production that will run for 50 performances and thousands in the audience every night, but when you get to the audition, it ends up being a small church production or a kindergarten class production for parents day. If you did end up getting the part of Tarzan or Jane, you get a small cash prize and you go to the other book signings with the author and be the characters from her book. Yeah, that would be fun, but the pay is so small, I would be spending more money to go there than I would be making money actually doing the job. It would be good improv experience. I wouldn’t mind the job, but if I don’t get it, I’ll be really angry that I actually went to the audition. Not to mention I already am.

Oh, not to mention that right before the audition, I had a iced tea from Peete’s Coffee and I didn’t realize at first, but there was caffeine in it. I’m allergic to caffeine. I was so sick for the first 3 hours of driving home. I don’t mean puking sick, but I get anxiety attacks, when I’m not anxious, for no reason, I get this thing called brain zaps, I get jittery, dizzy, my brain gets fuzzy, I can’t focus, I start talking about random things, and then change the subject. It was bad.

Over all, a bad experience. And no, if I get the job, I’m not going to say it was a good experience. The audition was a bad experience. The actual job might be a good experience.

It felt good to be in Hollywood again. I was in the same area as I was the last time I was there 2 1/2 months ago. It is all so familiar.


I treated myself to Panda Express today. And Wendy’s yesterday. And McDonalds. Yeah. I’m going running in about an hour. Just finished the last of the Panda Express. I made it last 2 meals, breakfast and lunch and a snack after work.

Semper fi.

“Happiness is like a kiss. You must share it to enjoy it.” -Bernard Meltzer

I just posted my last post about 20 minutes ago, but I was thinking and decided to look around and I found something.

The commercial I was in with Victoria Justice!

  • my pink shoes on the right in the first shot
  • after she turns around the corner, I am on the left side of her
  • 0:13, I’m on the left in the black shirt, and again one or two shots later, same scene

Yeah. I’m freakin’ excited about this!


“Do what you love and the money will follow.” -Marsha Sinetar

Life has gone up hill and then down hill very quick.

And I have decided, because of this amazing mood I am in (note the sarcastic tone), I’ll go ahead and tell you about the commercial and the Jeff Probst show.

Up hill:

It took about 8 hours to film the commercial. And the guest celebrities? Victoria Justice and Ryan Beatty! I will admit I was probably the only person who knew Ryan Beatty, or rather about him. They didn’t tell us she was going to be there until after she had just arrived. And Ryan was already there. I actually recognized him as soon as I saw him. It was really cool! The commercial was with AT&T as a Public Service Announcement to not text and drive. It was my first paying job.

The Jeff Probst Show sent a limo bus to pick us up. It took 8 hours to drive down because we made a stop near San Francisco to pick up my brother. We arrived at the hotel, The Roosevelt Hotel on Hollywood Boulevard in Hollywood, across the street from the Chinese Theater, a famous movie theater. some of my sisters decided to walk around outside after we got there and it turns out there was a movie premier at the Chinese Theater. And guess who was there? Johnny Depp! They saw him leave the theater and get into his limo. The next morning, we had the limo pick us up and drive us to the studio.We had hair and makeup and wardrobe done. We actually got to keep our wardrobe after, and I absolutely love my dress! We had a about 20 minutes of face time, but they are probably going to edit that down. They had a surprise for us, but I’m not going to say what. You are just going to have to watch on September 1oth to see what it was. And then the 8 hour drive back, but I stayed with my brother.

Down hill:

I don’t know why my mom chose that moment to tell me, but I have to pay for my gas to L.A. from now on. I think that is fair, but I have no money. I have Just over $100. So, yeah. I do have money, but there are other things going into the equation.

Ten days after you sign up for your class, your classes have to be paid off or else they drop you and they give your spot to someone else. My 10th day was Thursday. My classes weren’t paid for because we are in debt. We maxed out the credit card. I don’t mind giving 100% of my paychecks to my parents, but only as long as they had been paying for my gas and school. We can’t afford that anymore. I need to pay for gas and school. My 4 classes that I was going to take cost almost $500. I did apply for a state grant, but they never got back to me. I can’t just call their office. It’s all online. So, I am currently not in school because of the cost.

Here’s the other thing. I was supposed to work on Thursday, but I was leaving that day for L.A., so I was going to call in and use a sick day, and that would have been my third in 2 months. At about 2, I realized I forgot to call in. We were in the process of packing and getting organized to leave all morning. We left at about 12:30 pm, and my shift started at noon. So,  I might be loosing my job. L.A. takes up too much time to work where I do when they don’t allow any leniency and everything is by the book.

Here’s the break down: I might lose my job, and that means no money. My family is past the point of no money and I can’t take any classes this year because of it. I need to pay for my way to and from L.A. from now on, but I might not have a job, so I might not be able to go to L.A. anymore for anything. On top of all this, because of where I live and my proximity to L.A., nobody wants to buy an ad for the program for the pageant I’m going to be in. Half the money was due last week, and I don’t have a penny for it. If they drop me, they will tell my agent I flaked on them because I signed an agreement that I would do everything in my power to get the money and I will get the money. (Granted I only called back 3 people who I sent packets to, but I am so discouraged and I know for a fact they won’t buy an ad because of the economy and I don’t know them or I have an unbelievably awkward relationship with that person. I actually changed the way I walked to class many times in high school so I wouldn’t pass by certain people.) I absolutely can not get that money. If my agent is told I am a flake, I won’t get sent to any auditions or my contract will be dropped, which I guess will solve the money for gas issue because there will be no need for that gas. However, that doesn’t solve the fact that this is what I want to do.

“Do what you love and the money will follow”? No. I can’t do what I love to do because I have no money. I almost don’t even have a job right now because of what I love to do. I am getting sick, mentally and physically, because I can’t do what I love to do.

I’m going to watch a movie and go to bed now, even though it is still early for me. Not even 10 pm.

“Be brave. Take risks. Nothing can substitute experience.” -Paulo Coelho

Saturday, I filmed a commercial as an extra. Before I name any names, I will look over the papers I signed, then I will tell you everything that happened. Trust me, it was surprise for me.

The “secret project” I have been talking about  can be announced now. We had a film crew at our house on Sunday, and we are going to L.A., as a family, on Thursday to film on Friday for a new T.V. show coming out, called The Jeff Probst Show. Does than name sound familiar? Jeff Probst was the host for the T.V. show Survivor. The show doesn’t air until September 10th, my family will be on the first episode, and the Facebook page already has over 15,000 likes. Crazy! The topic of our episode? “The Busiest Family”. Kinda perfect, right? So they got to our house at about 6 and filmed us getting ready for church, riding to church, driving home from church, and lunch time, until about 2:30. It was kinda fun driving around town and people staring because there was a guy with a giant camera in the passenger seat. And when we got to church and were leaving, people were like “why is there a camera crew following you?” and we would explain and they thought it was awesome we are going to meet Jeff. The crew was extremely nice. There was three guys, one main camera, and two guys for sound, but one of them would bring out a second camera at times.


So, yeah. I’m going to meet Jeff Probst this week. Honestly, I have never seen “Survivor”. We haven’t had cable or anything like that in about 8 years. We watch movies that we have and we rent three Netflix movies at a time. We used to do instant watch with them, but we decided to stop because of the extra fees and we were starting to get lazy. 

Well, it’s just after midnight and I am planning on working out early in the morning because I must have eaten over 6,000 calories in the past 2 days. The camp that I went to yesterday and today has an open kitchen 7-11 with junk food laid out on the counters and in the fridge and cabinets, and you can take whatever you want, whenever you want, and however much you want. Soda, chocolate milk, yogurt, pudding, chips, candy bars, beef jerky, trail mix, pretzels, granola bars, cereal bars, and I kinda went crazy. My body needed a break from eggs and veggies. And I let myself have whatever I wanted, even if I wasn’t hungry or if I was full. I did go for a run while I was there. I ran about 2 miles. But I know I need more exercise. I know I ate too much junk food. I can feel it. I feel so crappy and icky and sluggish. I’m pretty sure I’m going back Friday night through Sunday, when it ends.  I’ll “detox” from it later. Later because I’m going back and I know I’ll be in the kitchen more, and because I brought a lot home with me. And it is quickly dwindling, even if I’m not hungry. That’s a no-no in my book.

The good thing that came out of me going was that on the first day, not to mention meeting new people, I drank 3 bottles of water and 2 bottles of Gatorade. And when I woke up today, I was a bit tired, but I wasn’t dizzy and didn’t have a fever any more. Did I mention that yet? Guess not. I woke up on Sunday at 5:30, after going to bed at 3 am because I was filming on Saturday, and I felt so crappy and sick from exhaustion. During church, I felt feverish and hot and was sweating, but  everybody else said they felt fine. It wasn’t too hot in church. I had a fever and was dizzy and felt like passing out. I needed rest. The thing is, I can’t just rest. People tell me I need a day off to just do nothing and sleep. I can’t do that. If I do, I just sit there and I’m like “Okay, now what?”. I can’t do nothing. Yeah, I watch T.V., but not for 14 hours a day and then sleep. I need stuff to do, even if I’m supposed to be resting. Sitting there doing nothing is unbelievably boring to me. Anyway, I think I just needed electrolytes and I was dehydrated. I’m don’t have anything planned for tomorrow, so I can pretend to rest tomorrow.

Peace, love, and the image of beef jerky in your head. Why? Because that’s what i’m eating right now, at 12:30 am. And I shouldn’t. 

“Every noble work is at first impossible.” -Thomas Carlyle

My schedule is quickly filling up. The bank is quickly draining. The credit card is quickly loosing available funds.

Friday- Call back the possible sponsors for the pageant. Memorize side for video audition. Pick up pay check from work.

Saturday- L.A. day for filming a PSA. Leave at about 4, film about 6 hours, drive home.

Sunday- Church. Camera Crew in the afternoon. Leaving to take my brother to camp and I will be staying the night at the camp.

Tuesday- Call back more possible sponsors.

Thursday- Family is driving to L.A. and staying the night at a hotel.

Friday- Filming. Driving home.

Plus I don’t know my work schedule for next week just yet.

I leave you with peace, love, and the image of steak in your head.

“It is not to be expected that human nature will change in a day.” -Frank B. Kellogg

I had my photo shoot yesterday. I have so much to say and I honestly don’t want to say it, for PR reasons. I don’t want to give anything away. I had 3 looks: a glamour, a swim suit, and a themed shot. 

Then I went to an audition for a student film, and I can’t believe I nailed that audition! I didn’t make a single mistake! I did a fantastic audition! I did two takes, one was a shot of just me, and he other was playing against some one else. I can’t believe I didn’t fumble. They even said they were impressed and loved my performance. However, they said I looked too young for the part, but I might do well in a different part in the film and will use that tape of me as the audition for the other character. I looked young because I still had all my makeup on from the photo shoot. It was caked on my face and I had dramatic eye shadow and giant false eye lashes. 

So, yeah.  Peace, love, and pancakes!

“Exercise is labor without weariness.” -Samuel Johnson

I know I have a few long days these past few months, but these next two days are going to be crazy!

I work an 8 hour shift tomorrow till midnight. Then I leave at 3 am for L.A. for my photo shoot at noon. That should last about 2 hours. Then I have an audition right after that. Then I am going to be a feature extra in a movie that starts filming at 6, and will be my first paying role. We will probably spend the night at my great uncles house in North L.A., and drive home on Monday morning, getting home just in time for musical rehearsal. Holy cow! I spent all day today shopping at thrift stores for shoes. We got an email from the pageant directors telling me what I need for the photo shoot, mainly shoes. Black, gold, silver. Still didn’t find gold. I might borrow my sister’s. I was so tired from all that and I guess not really catching up on my sleep or something, because I almost passed out while getting my hair cut today. (I got 3 inches trimmed off the bottom and then the bottom 3 inches were layered. I got 6 inches off. It feels so short, but I think it looks so much better and it fits my face better, now.) I only had a hard-boiled egg and 2 granola bars for breakfast. I started to black out while the woman was cutting my hair. So when I came home, I had some chicken and biscuits, and took a 3 hour nap, and then had dinner right when I woke up, 3 tacos and a chicken sandwich from Jack in the Box. And then I went to my play rehearsal for 2 hours. 

I hope I can get through these next 2 days without passing out from exhaustion!

Peace, rest, sleep, and the image of french fries in your head. 

“A picture is worth a thousand words.” -Napoleon Bonaparte

On page 16 in People Magazine for July 30, 2012, there s a picture of Matt riding a bike and it mentions the movie, Lovesick. I thought that was kind of cool.

We didn’t have a camera on set with us when I was filming the movie. All I had was my phone camera, and my phone is old. Anyway, my mom took a picture on my phone, and my Dad took a picture of my phone. This is the only picture I have. This was after filming in the fleece sweater, so I had sweat dripping down my face and my face was red. Yeah. They look great.

(Adam Rodriguez, Me, Matt Leblanc)