This is just an update post for the last few and adding on.

3 week fitness challenge: it was for my health class; I finished it, only missing 2 days because my asthma was really bad and I couldn’t workout; Got an A on it; Got an A in the class. Other class grades are on their way in the next few days.

Job: I finally quit my job! I don’t want to give specifics as to what pushed me, other than my friends noticing how stressed I was and suggesting I quit my job. I am looking for another job, however. It’s not easy when everyone already hired for the winter rush.

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Teeth: after changing the date around a few times, I am getting my teeth out on Dec. 27th. So not looking forward to it. Like, I’m on the verge of cancelling, again.

Shows: Last I wrote, I was in Babes in Toyland and a show at my church. I quit Babes in Toyland because my school schedule conflicted too much. Just did the church musical. That went great. It was a good show and I actually enjoyed it. I volunteer on Wednesday nights anyway with those kids, so it was fun.

School: I don’t know how I am going to pay for school next semester. My last paycheck will only cover half of my books, and I haven’t payed my student fees yet. I actually can’t look at my grades until I pay the fees first. I finished all 6 finals last week, and now have 4 weeks off before school starts next year.

Books: since I got out of school 4 days ago, I have read 9 books. No joke. I’m actually getting tired of reading. Lol. I’m going to have to use the treadmill instead of using it as a coat rack.

Month 8: of not having an LA based job. My last one was in May, for the UCLA project. SUCKS to see your dream job being teased in your face, tangles in grasp, only for it to be ripped away, stomped on, lit on fire, and thrown in the trash. I am not giving up until my contact runs out (and even then, I’ll be looking for another agency), but I am so close to giving up. A friend of mine has made it in LA. I was in a show (The King and I) with her little brother. Just found out he was in a the new Cadillac commercial. Really? He moved in with her 4 months ago and already has a national commercial? I’ve had a contract almost 2 years and I have done almost nothing with it! I don’t get it! What am I doing wrong?

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Forgetting about him, what can I do? What is there to do? I can’t move to LA, unless my parents want to, and that is out of the question. I am beyond frustrated. I almost don’t even want to post any of this because it could be bad for my rep, being seen as this desperate.

So true.

As bad as this is and it is already admitting defeat, I have decided what classes to take next semester (general psychology, public speaking, nutrition, beginning photography, and cardio-kickboxing), decided to cut my hair if my contract isn’t renewed, and decided to take a nutrition course next summer with the NFA ( i think they are called) to become a nutritionist in a gym. However, I need a job first to pay for the class.

I literally tear up because I miss Los Angeles  so much. I miss it so much. I can’t even describe. I know I play it up and think of being much grander than what it really is at times, but it is what I want.

I decided the root of my problems (in a way) are either or a combination of two thing: time and money. I can’t afford to move to LA, I can’t afford to pay for acting class, I can’t afford to be in the pageant I interviewed for 3 weeks ago, I don’t have enough time with my contract.

Looking on the bright side: I applied for 22 scholarships for next fall semester in school. Any amount of them will be a great help. I am looking into three jobs right now, so not all hope is lost.

Hmm. This is making me depressed. I just decided my next post will be my new years resolutions, which I have already picked out. They are not depressing. It will balance out this post and save my rep. Lol.

New Year’s Resolution #1: less depressing posts! Lol. JK.

2014 is almost here so dont forget to plan your promises! 🎆🎇✌